Yeah Matt. I too have a huge problem with allegations of hypocrisy. In a crisis, we do what we need to do to survive. Well, we and all the world are in crisis and right now, if I want to survive, I have to keep my job in civilization. I'm doing what I personally can to learn how to live outside of civilization, but until I cross a certain threshold of competence and community, I will readily admit that I depend upon civilization to help me survive. Often, I get angry or tearful to admit that civilization has such an insidious grip on me. But I don't hate myself for acting "hypocritical". I no longer make value judgments on others who act hypocritically, either, although that behavior can be infuriating.
I used to do that, make value judgments. Not any more. I do make many, many judgments, but they aren't about right and wrong... rather, I ask myself lots of questions about other people's behavior, and make more practical kinds of judgments that aren't based on values/ideals. I ask things like, A) do I feel safe to be myself around him/her when he/she behaves that way?, B) what kind of outlook or experiences in life might have motivated that behavior?, and C) what would it take for this behavior to change?
(It is dangerous to ask these questions in the workplace, although I do it all the time (maybe I should work on letting it go when I'm at work...). Sometimes when I have a particularly "civilized" customer who does not relate to me on a human level, I will start to feel out my answers to those questions, and I quickly reach the conclusion that I want that person and behavior *gone*, out of my sight, because it is painful or scary to be aware of what their behavior indicates about the state of their mind. It makes it very hard to be patient with them in a customer service setting.)