Well, if it helps you feel better, I feel that a lot of the ways people socialize in our civilization are contrived or artificial. Especially in cities where you're always meeting new people and having superficial interactions with strangers. There are a lot of kinds of socialization that I'd rather not participate in. For example, I think it's really boring to have a conversation about a sale going on at The Gap, yet people have conversations like that all the time.
Obviously I don't know you, so I can't give you very concrete advice. But I'd ask you to consider that maybe the problem is not with you, but with your social environs, which marginalize the kind of social interactions that feel fulfilling to you. (This is part of my experience in civ, anyway.) At the same time, you're not exempt from relearning how to communicate. You, I, and everybody who rewilds has a lot of work to do at learning how to communicate effectively in a "village" or "tribe" kind of society; that's a lifelong challenge for all of us.